Monday, December 19, 2005

MAHALO A NUI

Well, I have sufficiently recovered from my jet lag (but am still feeling a little of the NOG party my friend and I threw last night) and wanted to take a moment out of my day to say mahalo a nui - thank you very much!

There are so many folks to thank that helped me cross the finish line: friends and family, donors, teammates, my acupuncturist, and those "strangers" who followed me along the way via this blog. I never would have made it without everybody.

East Coast Alaskan Girl wants to know when the next one is . . . well, there's a half-marathon in April I'm planning on running in Nashville. And my friends who went to Hawaii with me are already planning for Prague, Rio, Thailand, Paris, Maui, Florence, and we would be more than happy to return to Honolulu next year!!! Of course, I'm open to other suggestions so comment away!

Anyway, thank you everybody for all of your support! I will continue to keep the blog . . . after all, there is no finish line.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Unofficial Results


Well, I'm back on the mainland now . . . arrived at 6:30 this morning after a 22 hour trip. Leaving the 70 degree weather to come back to the remnants of an ice storm is pretty depressing. Tack on an audition at 11:30 and work until 9:30 and I'm not certain I'll be able to find my way home! WHEW.

So . . . get to the point, silly. THE MARATHON: It was hot and it was crowded. It wasn't my best run and it wasn't my worst run. I had moments of great joy and I had moments of great pain.

I finished. I got my medal, my shell necklace, and my t-shirt - but I didn't get any results. Really.

I have an idea what time I finished (about 4:45) based on how my Tegla Teammates finished, but I am the only one without an "official time." Perhaps my chip malfunctioned, but for some reason the universe decided that it didn't really matter. Hang loose, surfer girl - who cares about the time if you crossed the line! And you know, in Hawaii, I can really embrace that mentality!!!

What mattered in the end was I had three amazing friends there to cheer me on - and I got to see them three times along the route and again at the finish. What mattered was all of my teammates finished, too. What mattered was I had a terrific massage after, and then a bowl of guilt free ice cream. What mattered was, though my last three miles sucked, I was able to get up the next morning and learn to surf. What mattered was I then climbed Diamond Head. What mattered was I then celebrated my birthday (Hau'oli lahanau to me!) on a sunset Mai Tai booze cruise and a great dinner at Dukes.

What mattered was the amazing vacation I got with dear friends in a beautiful setting with perfect weather.

Who cares about TIME???

The only time I cared about TIME was when I had to leave.

So let's leave the time results UNofficial - fast, slow, win, or lose. And let's declare the trip an official WIN.

Friday, December 02, 2005

BUSTED

Yup. I was finally busted. By my Aunt L. who is a terrific supporter of my endeavor here. I received an e-mail from her today wondering if all was well as I hadn't posted an entry in several weeks.

The good news is: YES all is well. The bad news is: I've been LAZY. Not running lazy (not per se), but writing lazy. I just haven't had the energy to post anything.

It's been a busy time. Since my last post I finished my fight choreography for West Side Story, had two call-backs (all for nothin'), hosted 14 people for Thanksgiving (and ran the turkey trot, too), wrapped up one of my three jobs for the season, had two acupuncture appointments, applied for a teaching position, celebrated two birthdays, got sick (still fighting the ever-morphing bug) and continued my two jobs and animal care-taking.

Okay - excuses, excuses! Maybe the REAL reason I haven't written is because I'm afraid. There, I said it. I'm a little scared. I had a GREAT 26-mile run and now I feel pressure to have a GREAT marathon - self-imposed pressure of course. What if I let all these great people who helped me get to Honolulu down? What if I let my team down? What if I let MYSELF down? There is the biggest question of all . . . what IF I don't perform well on race day? As much as I say I'm embracing each race for what it is, don't we all enter "events" with certain hopes or expectations? I would be lying if I said I was completely open to any finishing time. If I run my worst time ever, how will I feel? I will be bummed. I will DEAL with it, but I won't be pleased or just happy to have finished. I will tell myself that and eventually I may believe it. The reality is, I want a good run. I want a strong run. I want a happy run.

I'm so afraid of FAILING. Stupid, I know. Finishing isn't failing, but tell that to my raging gremlin. So how to cope?

Well, I continue my acupuncture which really helps. I think of all the other things I'll do once in Hawaii (I even threatened my mother I'd come home with a tattoo - I still may do it!). I laugh and plan with my friends who are joining me. And I write in my blog that I'm afraid. And once again . . . I run. I run from the gremlin, I run from my fear, I run from all the things that trouble and upset me. And I run towards the finish line . . . and another race.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

4 Weeks

Yup, in a short four weeks, I will be running the Honolulu Marathon. At exactly this time, in fact (if you consider the time difference).

Yes, it's a 5AM start and from what I learned on my 26 mile run yesterday, I'll be glad for it.

That's right. I ran 26 miles yesterday. I'm tired today, but I felt strong the entire run so I continue to feel very positive about race day.

Team Tegla had a guest with us yesterday and she really inspired me. She ran Honolulu last year so had all sorts of good advice about that particular marathon. We should be prepared for the heat once the sun rises (1/2 way into the race, by my calculation) and should definitely carry our water bottles and run with our walk ratio like we have been in training. Of course I always question that, but one reason she inspired me is because she ran Chicago recently and finished in 3:48 - with the walk ratio - and she's 44! I'm so impressed! So based on her advice, I believe most of Team Tegla will race together and race well.

I can't believe it's so close now. One of my friends is practically packed, she's so excited to go. I'm getting there, but all I can manage at this time is to put one foot in front of the other. Granted, yesterday's run was a big deal and helped me realize I'm that much closer and, ultimately, ready for it. Still, I have three animals to care for, a Thanksgiving to plan, and work to do before I can leave.

But let me tell you, once I get on that plane, I'm leaving it all behind me for six days and enjoying every moment of being free from responsibility. I can't WAIT to PLAY.

And play is just 4 weeks away.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Mind Games

Last week, sitting on the acupuncture table, I expressed my frustration about my missed maintenance runs to my acupuncturist. She's also a marathoner, and she cocked her head and wondered out loud why I should worry about it. The rest of the conversation went something like this:

Me: What? I HAVE to get my runs in!
Her: Why? Have you missed them before?
Me: Umm . . . (sheepishly) yes.
Her: Did anything bad happen? Did you have a bad long run after or something?
Me: No.
Her: Why then are you worried about it?

She brought up a good point. There was NOTHING in my history of running that should make me think missing some runs would be terrible. Naturally, it's not ideal, but would it lessen any of the progress I've made up to this point? NO.

It was that damn gremlin again making me worry. I was playing mind games.

So then I had to ask myself, why do I run? Sure there are plenty of benefits: it's fun, I can eat whatever I like (to a degree), I stay healthy and strong, I release stress, etc. In the end though, what is it that gets me out the door with my running shoes on?

In trying to answer that question, I found myself browsing Runner's World and back to John Bingham and this article. This man is my running guru!

As part of my final performance project in grad school, I used an ad from NIKE. It said:

A WOMAN IS OFTEN MEASURED BY THE THINGS SHE CANNOT CONTROL.
SHE IS MEASURED BY THE WAY HER BODY CURVES OR DOESN'T CURVE, BY
WHERE SHE IS FLAT OR STRAIGHT OR ROUND.
SHE IS MEASURED BY 36-24-36 AND INCHES AND AGES AND NUMBERS, BY ALL THE OUTSIDE THINGS THAT DON'T EVER ADD UP TO WHO SHE IS ON THE INSIDE.
AND SO IF A WOMAN IS TO BE MEASURED LET HER BE MEASURED BY THE THINGS SHE CAN CONTROL, BY WHO SHE IS AND WHO SHE IS TRYING TO BECOME.
BECAUSE AS EVERY WOMAN KNOWS, MEASUREMENTS ARE ONLY STATISTICS.
AND STATISTICS LIE.

Granted, it's an advertisement (written by a woman, at least), but I did like what it had to say about being measured by who was trying to become. So my guru's comment on potential really rings true with me. I run to realize my potential - as an athlete and as a woman.

Of course, unlike my guru, I don't accept what each day brings as easily as he does. But I'm working on it with the help of my acupuncturist, Team Tegla, and friends. So instead of MIND GAMES I can have an OPEN MIND. And hopefully, like my guru says, my soul will win every time.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Maintenance Malaise

I'm having trouble this week getting my maintenance runs in . . . and this is a critical time.

It's mostly because of Beatrice. I'm pretty tired caring for her and I have just found out she is ring-worm positive, so her recovery will take even longer than I originally planned. It looks as if she'll be around for another four months or so. SIGH. She's worth it, but she's so demanding of my time.

I have GOT to get out and run.

Of course, the whole daylight savings crap and extended work hours and cold temperatures don't help my enthusiasm. Don't get me wrong, I like cooler weather for running, but when I'm tired and I'm all cozy in my bed early in the morning, I just don't want to put on shorts and get moving.

I have got to get OUT and run.

My housemate leaves on Saturday for a month-long trial in NYC which means I'll have three animals to care for in the final weeks leading up to the marathon as well as juggling my three jobs. Throw the fight choreography for West Side Story and Thanksgiving at my house into the mix and I'm watching the time fly by!

I have got to get out and RUN.

It really is the only way for me to release some stress and deal with all of these things on my plate. You would think I would be better at making time for this. What happened to the evening running group you may ask? Well, one night I'm teaching and the other I am often working an event for my other job. So that's pretty much out for this month. I must get back to my morning routine.

I HAVE GOT TO GET OUT AND RUN!!!

Tomorrow is another day . . .

Monday, October 31, 2005

Pumpkin Carving


Last night I had some friends over to carve pumpkins in preparation for tonight - Halloween.

I have done this a couple of times in the past and I just love it. As adults, we forget how much fun it is to carve pumpkins. We're so busy going to costume parties and getting drunk we forget the pure and simple fun of plunging our bare hands into pumpkin guts.

There weren't many of us, which is often what happens, but we sure were creative. When the pumpkins were carved and lit it was really beautiful. We had three "traditional" jack-o-lanterns: one had a bat-shaped mouth, one looked like a samurai, and one was your CLASSIC cut. We also had a spider and a kitty cat (yes, that was mine, in honor of Beatrice's first Halloween). We set them out on the deck, all lit up, and oooed and ahhhed over them.

Then we dug into some FABULOUS food and wine and watched Silence of the Lambs. I had also rented Rear Window and The Ring, but we had two Lamb virgins so we opted to go for the suspenseful serial killer. It's such a great movie - no matter how many times I've seen it something surprises me.

Sadly, tonight I have to work, so I can't hand out candy and see all the neighborhood kiddies in their costumes. I'm disappointed. But at least I was able to get in the spooky spirit last night!

Sunday, October 30, 2005

MCM

This morning I strolled down to the National Mall to join the throngs of spectators cheering on the Marine Corps Marathon participants. I had a blast.

I meant to follow my good friend and previous training partner's progress and catch up with him at a couple of points. When I didn't see him at the 12 mile marker in the time I expected him, I made a phone call to a good friend who was nice enough to check his status on line. His map marker had him at the 6 mile mark without passing the first time update. I was surprised, but perhaps he was having a bad day and made the decision not to run any further. I'm hoping he is okay and that I'll hear from him soon about what took place.

However, I decided to stay and cheer the rest on . . . having been there myself 5 times, I know how important it is to hear the people on the side giving you words of encouragement. It's the fans that help see you to the finish line. It was awe inspiring to be cheering people on who, despite their great effort, I knew wouldn't "beat the bridge" and therefore not finish officially. These people who were going to be on the course for upwards of SEVEN or EIGHT hours! Those who finish in just over two hours are truly amazing athletes, but those who participate for seven-plus hours and don't even get the benefit of finishing are truly amazing people.

Watching marathons makes me emotional. I think of how I have felt each time I've crossed the finish line: exhausted, relieved, and so happy. I usually cry I'm so overwhelmed.

As I was walking away after watching the last of the last with bus and police escort pass the mile marker, I began to get the excited and nervous feeling deep inside my gut - and a little choked up. Hawaii is just over a month away. Am I ready? Will it go well? Will there be plenty of people, besides my friends, there to get me to the finish? These questions can only be answered on December 11th, but I am hopeful.

And for those of you cheering me on from the mainland, pray my map marker doesn't stop at mile 6!

Saturday, October 29, 2005

8 Mile

Ran 8 miles this morning - the coldest morning we've had since March, I'm guessing. Brrr. But it was a good run and I'd rather run in the cold than the oppressive heat.

Not much else to update . . . I've been busy, but it hasn't been very exciting.

I just wanted to let you all know I'm still in the game and running hard.

Monday, October 24, 2005

What's In A Name?

We named Kitty today.

Beatrice Yatima - means "bringer of joy" "orphan".

Beatrice is also a great character from Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing and . . . I hesitate to say it . . . my grandmother's name. The Shakespeare element seems appropriate since I work in the theatre as does the new daddy in NYC. It's also works with her new step-siblings: Ariel (The Tempest) and Harald (who they call Prince Hal I believe).

I was given the go ahead by the future parents in NYC since she will be with me for a couple of more months and I didn't want to call her "Kitty" for that length of time.

At least her vet record won't say "stray" anymore!

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Big City Kitty Delayed

Well, it looks like Kitty's trip to the Big Apple and her new home has been delayed . . . for who knows how long.

I took the dear thing back to the vet today and she is now believed to be a MERE FOUR WEEKS OLD. That means I rescued her off the street as young as two weeks! Poor BABY. She was weighed for the first time today - she's not even a full pound of kitty.

She still has her respiratory infection, and because she caught the herpes virus (the cold culprit) at so young an age, it will probably be with her forever. Which means it may flare up throughout her life. SIGH.

She was dewormed again and the vet also suspects she has ringworm, so she has been tested and needs to be shampood daily for THAT. I also need to continue her antibiotic eye gel twice a day. WHEW - this sweet stray is labor and cost intensive! When she is finally healthy and old enough, we begin her vaccinations.

I have to go BACK in the next couple of days with a fecal sample (oh joy oh rapture) because she didn't have anything in her this morning. The dear girl was brave and quiet throughout the treatment - just shivered due to cold or nerves (or maybe both). She is now sleeping off the morning's trauma all bundled up and will once again go to work with me today.

I am torn about the delayed trip to NYC. In one way I am happy she'll be around a little longer, but in another way I am worried that I will grow even more attached over her recovery time and giving her up will be very difficult. Sandy is quite fond of her, and though Zoe has relaxed some and tolerates her better than before, it would be a long battle to have them co-exist peacefully.

But I remain open and positive. For whatever reason the universe felt it necessary this kitty be in my life right now - for the life of me I can't figure it out, but am willing to live with not knowing. I find it fascinating that my housemate and I applied to foster a Katrina dog and have not heard anything . . . at the same time this kitty comes into our home. Things that make you go "hmmmmm."

For now, it's off to launder the dirty kitty towels and figure out how to set up my room knowing she will be here for a while. Though it means my life remains disrupted, all that work is worth it when she sleeps on my chest and purrs contentedly.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

23 Miles

This morning we ran 23 miles. I am tired, but had a very good run!

It was cold and rainy this morning, so I donned my new Baltimore 1/2 Marathon UnderArmour
shirt (it's snazzy!) and shorts and, after taking care of the dogs and kitty, left the house not certain I would enjoy the run.

We weren't quite a full group today - 8 Team Tegla-mates were there. Things started as they usually do - we went out faster than we should and basically maintained that along the way. One of our "no-shows" showed up around mile 5. She had overslept, raced to a place near where we run, parked her car and found us along the route. Impressive to say the least - I would have stayed in bed! She had a tough run, but hung in there to the bitter end. That girl has lots of guts.

I was feeling great. Maybe it's my acupuncture. Maybe it was the confidence of the 1/2 marathon. Maybe it was just that it was, with the exception of the rain, perfect running weather. Maybe it was that I ate well and was rested. It might well be all of the above. But whatever it was, it was working for me this morning.

About mile 17 one of our runners began to fade mentally. That's a tough place to check out - with 6 miles to go! The AIDS Marathon Program has a rule that one runner volunteers to be a "designated driver" to make sure another runner having a bad day is cared for along the route. I begrudgingly volunteer almost every week since I sometimes lose steam toward the end - but mostly because nobody else will.

Well, that meant I had to wait for the fellow who went back to bed in his mind. I was hoping I would leave him at a water stop and he even said he would . . . then changed his mind but still wasn't running. This, of course, was VERY FRUSTRATING for me as I was feeling fabulous. In the end, he finally "released" me from my duty (I felt guilty leaving him, but he wasn't SICK, just not interested in running anymore) but by this time Team Tegla was way ahead of me. Even the pace-group behind us was ahead of us!

So I took off to join up with them . . . and ran for a bit with them but was pining away to be with my friends. So when one of their runners started feeling the pain, I was off to catch up with Tegla.

I ran pretty hard for the 3 miles it took to reach them, but I did catch them with 2 miles to go. Oddly enough, I was still feeling good - even running harder those few miles. So I was able to run in with my group. And besides being tired and a little sore, I still feel good.

I am hoping today's run will give me the confidence I need . . . knowing I can run steady and still have something in me late in the run.

And if everything is going my way on marathon day, I will finish strong and happy.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

One Week

One more week left with my new baby and then she's off to be a BIG CITY KITTY!

I will be so sad to see her go. She is doing remarkably well now. Her eyes have cleared up, the worms are gone, she is eating - A LOT, and the fleas dying in the daily bath diminish in numbers. The only thing still troubling her is her upper respiratory infection - she is still coughing and sneezing. Poor thing.

Put she's curious and fearless - nothing fazes her - not even the two big dogs sharing her living space. I still have to keep Zoe from hunting her, but Sandy has adjusted quite well to Kitty and appears to want to mother her. It's damn cute.

Kitty has been exploring a lot the past several days. She's checked out the garden, the study, my bedroom, my bathroom, and my office. Her favorite toys are some string tied together and a paper ball (we love homemade toys!). She is getting more skilled at stalking and pouncing and loves to crawl under spaces and disappear.

She is also a love. At this very moment she is curled up in my lap sleeping. This morning, after a very early breakfast, she joined me back in bed and slept on the pillow curled up to my neck. ADORABLE! Her favorite perch is anybody's shoulder so she can survey her kingdom.

My parents met her over the weekend and my mother fell in love. She said she loves ANY baby. She cuddled her and took a bunch of pictures.

Hard to believe she'll be gone in a week. I'm going to miss her more than I care to think. I know she is going to the best home, but there is a part of me that desperately wants her to stay with me. Surely Zoe would adjust - wouldn't she? Hardly. She's already so jealous she barely leaves my side on walks. She still looks at Kitty like she's a squirrel. And she still grabs at her when she sees any opening.

SIGH. So I must give her up. Like the expression says, "If you love something, set it free." It's funny to think of loving something so much you let it go . . . perhaps a lesson to be learned in other areas of my life.

Monday, October 17, 2005

1:57:09

Well, I did it. I ran the Baltimore Half-Marathon in under two hours. Just barely, but I did it. According to my chip time, I averaged a 9:05 mile. I am pleased enough with that pace and just glad the race didn't kill me.

Believe me, there were times I thought it would. I tell you, the first 8 miles were all uphill and for once I don't think I'm exaggerating. Every time we'd crest a hill, we'd turn a corner and there would be another one. Ugh. I hate hills.

So I was a little sore when I finished, but with the exception of what has become chronic back pain (since the 20 miler a few weeks ago) I feel great. It was a beautiful day - sunny and cool - a little breezier than I like 'cause I'm not fond of head winds like I'm not fond of hills.

I ran with two friends - okay, so I ran the first several miles with two friends. They are both a decade younger and men and though I generally don't like to make excuses, I believe those facts do make a difference when it comes to running. They didn't finish MUCH faster than I did.

My parents were in town for the race - it's always so great to see them along the route. We missed each other early on, but I saw them as I approached the finish line. They are the most amazing supporters. My mother even wore her "Runners Mother" shirt I bought her a couple of years ago for the Marine Corps Marathon. She is one dedicated mom.

So now I focus solely on the marathon in December. It isn't that far away now. The 1/2 marathon taught me a couple of things though: I can sustain a good pace and I can finish strong. Not surprisingly they go hand in hand. And if I'm lucky, I will repeat that dynamic duo in December.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Lost and Found

What a hectic couple of days it has been. Saturday is rained . . . all day . . . like Noah's Ark rain.

Sunday morning it finally slowed down enough to take the dogs out for walk. On our way to Congressional Cemetery, as we were passing through a very busy intersection, I heard a kitty cry. I looked over and lo and behold I could barely make out a kitten hiding under a truck in that busy intersection.

Well, with two big dogs that consider kittens snacks, I had to continue to the cemetery. As we walked, I prayed and prayed it would still be there - safe and sound - on our way back.

Sure enough, it was still crying as I approached the intersection. So I ran the dogs back the half block, let them in the yard, and raced back to save the kitty.

The poor thing was water-logged and scared, but fierce enough to hiss at me as I reached for it. It was far too weak and small to outrun me, so I scooped it up and brought it home with me. I let the dogs in and then wrapped the wee thing up in a towel and held it close as I began to consider the enormity of what I had just done.

What were my options, really? I mean, it is clearly the kitten of a feral cat who quite possibly abandoned it or died - so it needed a home. For whatever reason, it chose me - in spite of the fact that I observed several people walk by the same intersection that morning. Did it know I would be the bleeding heart that would take it in? Apparently the universe let it know.

So, after a short shock and a cat nap (hers) I started to act. I cleaned up one of its eyes, which I thought was missing when I first picked it up. It was clearly infected. I went to the store and got a case for it 'cause I knew it needed protection against the dogs and a way to travel. I then took it to the vet . . . and it was diagnosed with an eye infection, an upper-respiratory infection, and anemia due to fleas (nasty buggers). It was very underweight and estimated six weeks old - and finally identified as a female!

Two medications and $150 later I was taking the sweet little girl kitty home.

Once home, I bathed her in dawn to kill the fleas (the damn things are so resilient I have bathed her twice again), fed her (wow can she eat), and held her as she slept the afternoon away. It was then I started considering who would take her home. I couldn't bear taking her to a shelter - even a no-kill shelter as I knew I was already too attached to not know how she grows up. But the dogs were already watching her intently with looks to kill . . . she couldn't stay.

So I tucked her into her little carrier and ran off to the computer to start sending out e-mails and making phone calls. Well, between allergies, lease restrictions, and too many cats already I was finding it difficult to place her and getting more and more upset by my dwindling options.

Then it hit me - two friends in NYC who were fabulous cat people. With one e-mail, the universe spoke again and these friends were actually considering a new kitty . . . so I am keeping my fingers crossed and praying silent prayers to St. Francis - even though I'm not Catholic - that it works out for all of us - especially baby kitty!

In the meantime, she continues to stay with me as she recovers. I get to clean her eyes and give her baths and enjoy her sweetness until she is well enough to travel and go to a home with other cats. But I cannot name her . . . because once I do, she is mine forever.

Her story is an amazing one - and a lucky one. In two short days she was lost and found.

Friday, October 07, 2005

Running Late

I am often "running late."

In high school, my quote in the yearbook was "You guys, WAIT!" Typically I was behind my friends and family . . . always trying to catch up.

This carried on into my adult life and I find myself constantly racing against the clock to be on time . . . I often don't succeed.

I blame my mother - or more accurately her doctor. You see, my mother is a VERY small woman (never weighed over 100 lbs except when pregnant small) and when she gave birth to my brother, she was the smallest mommy in the hospital - with the LARGEST baby (yeah, he was a TANK). So, when my mom was nearing her delivery date with me (Christmas) and was still gaining weight, her doctor decided she shouldn't carry to full-term as it would be dangerous. My mother's theory was that he was vacationing someplace exotic for the Holidays and didn't want to have to stick around . . . I think that likely. Anway, my mother was scheduled to be induced early on December 12th (not the next day as that would have been Friday the 13th). She was brought in with the other mothers, given her shot, and one by one watched the other woman go into labor. So they gave her another shot. And another. And another - that's when my mom stopped counting. Clearly, I was NOT READY to arrive. I was being rushed. I had things to do. I had to prepare for life outside the womb! I was HOLDING ON FOR DEAR LIFE. Of course, she eventually went into labor and I was born that afternoon, but I maintain that because I was forced to be two weeks early I have spent the rest of my life trying to catch up. I'm always running late.

Last night "running late" took on a new meaning to me. Last night, for the first time, I ran with the DC Front Runners. Though I am not gay, I am one of "their friends" and my Tegla pace group leader runs with them twice a week. Since Zoe is refusing to come out of semi-retirement, I have decided to begin running my maintenance runs with the Front Runners and they run "late" - which to me is 7pm.

We met at Dupont Circle and since it was already dark by the time we left, we took the best lit route from that point - up Massachusetts Ave. And when I say up, I mean UP. It's a two mile climb to the National Cathedral and then another mile with a hill about half way to American University. UGH. Though I have been running the Independence Ave hill at least once a week, it pales by comparison. The total mileage was about 6 miles. It was quite a cardio workout for me - a rare experience anymore when I'm running - clearly I need to shake up my workout!

So I think this is a good choice. Of course it means getting used to running at night now. I'll have to make the appropriate adjustments food-wise and all. I had eaten too late and hadn't consumed enough water yesterday so I got some side cramps on the way up the hill. And I'll have to make some adjustments to my evening schedule as well - eating late, getting home late, etc. But I think it's worth it. We'll run from Union Station on Tuesdays (much more convenient to Hill East) and keep running from Dupont on Thursdays.

I'm excited about my new training regimen - "running late." And who knows - maybe by running late now, I can arrive early at the finish line!

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wheel of Fortune

Sometimes I enjoy a moment of distraction online. Today, I had my tarot cards read online and to my happy surprise this is the card I drew for my FUTURE card.

This is the Wheel of Fortune card.

No, it does not mean I will be on the game show of the same name starring Pat Sajek.

Instead, it bodes good luck for me in the future. WHAT A THRILL! I haven't felt lucky in a long time . . . in many ways. This is what was said about it:

"Eleventh in the Major Arcana, The Wheel of Fortune is the card of chance. This wheel is always turning, just as life is always changing. In each corner of the card there is a creature that represents one of the four fixed Zodiac signs: the angel represents Aquarius, the eagle signifies Scorpio, the bull symbolizes Taurus, and the lion signifies Leo. The purpose of these creatures is to remind you that while your daily life is in flux, your spiritual truths are not. Life is about ebb and flow, and this card is a sign of lucky times. When the Wheel of Fortune is with you, nothing can stop you from getting what you want in life. Good fortune—in some area of life—is likely to be yours. More than any other step of life's journey, this card represents the lessons you must learn and the experiences in store for you in your upcoming karmic destiny. This may impact you in any number of ways, including:

Good luck in love, bringing you new suitors or a stretch in which everything in your current relationship seems to go right.
Getting your dream job, or the promotion you've been working for, even if they previously felt just out of reach.
A happy-go-lucky time in which you and your family have the fates on your side. This could be anything from finding a twenty-dollar bill on the street to finding and being able to afford your dream house."

My goodness! I'd be beside myself to be impacted in any of those ways! Of course, I'm most interested in getting that "dream job" and some "luck in love." They have been weighing heavy on my heart lately.

So, even though this was just for fun and computer generated, I'm going to embrace my lucky future. After all, we all spin the wheel at some point or another!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

51 Cents

No, it's not an incorrect reference to the rapper 50 Cent.

51 Cents is the amount of my latest residual check from Gods and Generals.

It's as if I'm in an episode of Seinfeld.

I was pretty excited to see the envelope as it used to mean a decent amount of money was enclosed. And it was always unexpected - a surprise. Kind of like found money. Imagine my surprise at the amount!

I mean, what can you get for 51 cents nowadays? I can't ride the metro - but I can transfer from metro to a bus with that. I can't buy a pack of gum - but I can get a gumball or two. I can't get anything in a vending machine! I can get only ONE first class stamp, but at least I get that. I'm seriously considering this and coming up empty handed - I got nothing. The check is hardly worth the paper it's printed on. I dare say it isn't even worth the paper it's printed on!

And depositing it is just damn funny. Imagine being the teller and having to punch in a whopping 51 cents into my account.

But deposit it I will, cause as the expression goes: I need every penny I can get! And as my grandfather used to say, "Save your pennies and the dollars will take care of themselves."

Monday, October 03, 2005

Open Doors

"When one door closes, another door opens."

Boy did I sure feel like the "under four hour" door closed tight and locked on me when my speedwork fell through. And for the life of me I couldn't figure out where the other door opened. I looked and looked and all I saw was that same closed door.

Then I read this article and figured out that maybe I should stop running into that closed door 'cause all it keeps doing is beating me up. Or more truthfully, I keep beating myself up. It hurts to run into a closed door over and over again. What's the point?

So I am approaching this marathon a little differently than I was before. Instead of going for a TIME, my goal is to finish strong. I felt pretty good after the 20 miler and I would like to feel that good after the marathon as well. So that is my open door. Finishing strong.

And who knows, maybe by concentrating on finishing strong, I will still finish fast. Because sometimes when the door is closed, if you look closely, you can find an open sign on it and all you have to do is turn the knob and run on through. If not, at the very least I have run through the big open door to the finish line and that's really what counts.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

20 Down . . .

. . . 6.2 to go.

Yup, ran 20 miles yesterday and it went remarkably well. Only a 10K left and next thing you know we're off for Honolulu! Actually, it doesn't work QUITE like that - in three weeks we run 23 and in six we run 26. After that, it's a short month to the marathon. :)

We had Sunday's Team Tegla join us this week due to the Army 10-miler and they will be running with us for the last two long runs as well. It was GREAT having them. Between the two groups, we had four current or retired Army and they sure know how to motivate. Becca got us going on some silly, made-up cadences for inspiration - one of which I ended up the butt of a really funny joke just because I happened to be running in front of her. She's not great at rhyming on the fly, but this particular time she nailed me.

We really got going when Captain Ron, former Airborne, began running the cadences. He got us through some of the harder middle miles and we ran tight and fast as he called and we repeated. It was actually FUN. Then Becca remembered one and helped us out . . . just in time to pass Coach Rick. He just smiled as he passed us by . . . in fact, most people smiled as we ran by them singing.

We all ran pretty well and it was great fun running through the pack of AIDS Walkers. They had their big walk around the mall just as we were finishing our run. It was great to see so many people out for the same cause.

We finished in just over 3 1/2 hours, so I have high hopes for a strong marathon finish. That was with slowing our pace down and with more frequent walk breaks. Maybe under 4 is possible without the speed work?

After the run yesterday, I quick showered and went with a friend and my housemate to Barracks Row for a small street fair and the Blessing of the Animals. Zoe and Sandy joined us, of course, and got blessed . . . not that any of us are big on organized religion, but I like the idea of Zoe being watched over. It was a gorgeous day and by the time we got the dogs blessed and went up and down the street, I needed to SIT DOWN.

So my friend and I came home while my housemate went to work and we watched the final episode of last season's LOST. Now I can get caught up with this season! It is, in my opinion, the best show on television and frankly the only one I watch with any regularity.

Then we hit La Lomita, sat outside, and enjoyed some Mexican food and a pitcher for dinner. Needless to say I was asleep by 9pm! Not typical.

Today I'm off to do a reading for Theatre J and more practical at home stuff. Tomorrow morning I'm back at Rock Creek Park for a run with Zoe. Got to stay faithful to the maintenance run!

Only 6.2 miles and 10 weeks to Honolulu - but whose counting?

Friday, September 30, 2005

GO RED SOX!

My heart races and I'm sick to my stomach - it must be another Red Sox v Yankees nail-biter.

Lordy, here we go again. And it ain't over 'till it's over, only this time there's the playoffs on the line.

UGH.

I don't think I can watch - somebody let me know when it's over.

September Survived

Yippeeeeeeeeeeee! It's over! I survived! WHEW, I'm tired.

Normally, I don't wish the time away, but I am greatly relieved this month is over. My schedule remains busy, but not AS busy thankfully as we head into October. :)

My trip to North Carolina was good . . . I thought the presentation went well, but was clearly not what everybody in the audience expected. SIGH. That's okay though - I can only control my part, not theirs.

My audition before my trip also went okay - I thought the first side went very well, especially after I got some adjustments from the director. I think I blew it with my second side.

Hope springs eternal, however, as I have two more auditions in the next two weeks. So say your prayers and keep your fingers crossed for me.

Tomorrow I run 20 miles. Say your prayers and keep your fingers crossed for THAT too.

My housemate and I are working on our Katrina dog foster application - a few 'i's to dot and 't's to cross, but we remain hopeful. I so want to do this!

Not much else to tell at this point . . . I'm just enjoying a day that isn't crammed with more things than I can accomplish, September ending, and taking a deep breath before October begins.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Green Festival

I'm a tree-hugger. Okay, not exactly - but I definitely believe in preserving our environment and today, after I finish some work, I'm off with a couple of friends to the Green Festival.

I went last year and had a great time. The festival has lots of information about living and buying more "green". There are exhibits, information booths, lectures and free samples. The knowledge about global warming, alternative fuels, green homes, etc is out there - and up for grabs at the festival. Too bad we can't force Congress to attend.

I mean, really. We have a system in DC for the terror level - AND for the AIR QUALITY. Doesn't that tell the boys club something? At all? Apparently not.

It sure tells me something. I pay close attention to the air quality report - especially when I'm training - and pretty much ignore the terror level all the time. I'm not alone in my thinking, either. Shouldn't that tell the boys club something as well?

Fortunately, the air quality is good today and made for an easy 8 miler this morning. It's overcast and cooler, and though it looks like it wants to rain, it hasn't yet. We haven't had rain in a month and those poor folks in the gulf are water-logged again. It just isn't right.

At least I can do something about it in my own small way. I can live green - take public transportation (which I do), recycle (which I also do), buy green products and invest in renewable resources. My next car is going to be a hybrid unless the technology improves enough that gas is no longer needed. Imagine that! And imagine our air quality then. We'd sure have a lot more "code green" days. I wouldn't have to pay attention to the air quality level - I could just go out and run and not worry that it would feel like a cat was on my chest the whole way.

So I'm off to the Green Festival and praying for code green next Saturday when we run 20 miles.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Friday Frustrations

It's Friday and I'm frustrated.

I'm frustrated by yesterday's audition (what the hell am I doing wrong?). I'm frustrated by my speed work not happening (yup, it's official, I will NOT be participating in any speed work because in two weeks it's OVER - I will refrain from commenting on the folks at AIDS Marathon until I've cooled off). I'm frustrated by work (too much to do, too little time). I'm frustrated by my present lack of social life (don't even get me started on match.com - ugh). I'm frustrated my red hair has FADED! I'm just friggin' frustrated!

So . . . tonight after the frustrating poetry event - being made even more frustrating by certain individuals - I'm going drinking. Yup. Going with a friend who's feeling Karmically challenged at the moment and possibly another friend who's feeling sinus pressure and we are getting un-frustrated!

Of course, tomorrow is a run day . . . so I may be REALLY frustrated at 7 AM. But it will have been worth it.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Surviving September

I think September comes in like a lion and then STAYS that way.

Maybe it has something to do with the start of the new school year. Maybe it is kissing summer and vacation goodbye. Maybe it has to do with ancient memories of harvesting. I don't know, but what I do know is that I once again feel as if I am barely holding on and must survive September.

My teaching has started at both NIH and Rockville so besides the time I spend in the classroom, I have prep work and a longer commute. Days I teach I leave the house before 7 AM and don't return until after 10 PM regularly. I'm still at the Folger and things are certainly picking up there now that the season is under way. So the juggling of three jobs has been and continues to be a constant.

But let's look at what's been added to it just this week: two auditions, a seminar in North Carolina (that still needs to be polished), lunch with my sister, and a visiting Aunt. OH, and a broken down car that's costing me over $400 to fix.

And of course I can't let my training lapse. So somewhere in there I need to squeeze in a couple of maintenance runs and then there's the speed work.

Wait a minute - WHAT SPEED WORK? Okay, I'm going to digress for a moment because I'm still a little ticked off.

As I've been talking about since the beginning of the blog, I was planning on participating in the Advanced Training Program which basically meant adding speed work to my training. I was excited because I thought it might improve my time and I could actually break the four hour mark. Since July I have been trying to coordinate with the office when I can actually begin this advanced training. Finally, in a desperate move, I spoke to one of the coaches and he said to just show up on Sunday.

So show up I did. And NOBODY was there. So either I had the TRACK wrong (which as far as I know American University only has ONE) or the TIME wrong (training has always been at 7 AM). Naturaully, I shot off an e-mail that "expressed my frustration" over the whole thing.

So today I get an e-mail saying that the training was meant for the Marine Corps Marathon runners, not Honolulu but if I want to attend the last two I can. WHAT? The LAST TWO? But the marathon is over two months away!!!!

Well, I have now sent an e-mail to somebody named Cal (who has some responsibility with the speed work) asking if there are indeed only two sessions left and if I should even bother. I'm a bit pissed off, but clearly if this is the end of the program then there is nothing I can do about it.

SIGH.

I guess surviving September means sucking it up - in more ways than one.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Breaking Through the Wall

So I ran 18 on Saturday. Not a bad run, except that at mile 16 my side started cramping. Sometimes lessons are learned the hard way.

Coach R. was with us (he really likes running with our group - we're fast enough and, more importantly, fun enough) when I cramped up and our exchange went something like this:

Coach: What did you have for dinner last night?
Me: Thai food.
Coach: Did you eat late or early?
Me: Late.
Coach: Did you eat more than you usually eat?
Me: Yes.

Three strikes, you're out. Actually, the Thai food wasn't a problem, it was that I loaded a night too late. Come to find out (and I consider this lesson a very late one for me since this is my sixth marathon), you should eat your big meal two nights before a long run. Also, you shouldn't eat too much or too late the night before a run. SO . . . though I did the exact same thing for the 16-miler that felt so good, I wasn't able to repeat it.

The article linked to the title has lots of good advice for those later miles that seem to haunt me. I am working on eating during my longer runs and learning to drink sports drinks along the way, too. I eat my breakfast and am now wondering how I'm going to do THAT when the marathon begins at 5 AM! I will have to wake up at 3 AM to eat and drink and all that good stuff. I guess I'll have to prepare it the night before, too, since I doubt room service delivers at that hour (and my friends who are joining me probably wouldn't appreciate a middle-of-the-night delivery).

Runner's World actually has lots of good advice about marathon training. One of the things it discusses is speed work which I am FINALLY starting this weekend! I'm a little nervous . . . don't quite know why, but assume it's the unknown and being physically tested and all that. Plus, I'm really going to miss Team Tegla! I so enjoy running with them and I will miss the easy runs of 8 - 10 miles.

The change in weather has made my maintenance runs easier and more pleasant. Even Zoe is enjoying getting out there.

And, since my schedule has radically changed, it looks as if I might get to try out the advice in the linked article about running at the same time the marathon happens. UGH. 5 AM. Ugly ugly ugly, but possibly necessary considering my crazy schedule. It won't be easy since I'm getting home so late, but since I haven't been sleeping well anyway . . . why not?

So . . . I continue to read and try and test and train. And hopefully I will break through that wall and break my personal best.

Friday, September 09, 2005

New Roommate?

Well, we've heard from our first "displaced" person from Katrina regarding our offer to house somebody. I'm surprised to have heard so soon and my housemate and I are eager to speak with him. We called and left a message for him only minutes ago.

Of course we have lots of questions. We worry about personal and property safety, we worry we'll be scammed, and we worry about being too careful! It's not easy opening your home to a stranger, but fortunately between the two of us we feel we can ask enough of the right kind of questions to ease our mind and make the right decision.

I so want this to work out!

Last night I woke up at 4:30 (nothing like the sound of cats in heat to wake you from a deep sleep) and from that point on could not stop thinking about Katrina and the frightening mess it left in its wake.

I keep thinking of that poor dog swimming after the press boat wanting to be rescued and being left behind. I keep thinking of the AWFUL photos of the folks who died violent deaths at the hands of other people while waiting to be rescued. I keep thinking of how our government keeps pointing fingers at everybody else and won't stand up and be accountable for its negligence! I am so angry and cannot believe the spin doctors are in place trying to smooth over the deaths of probably tens of thousands. I realize we are not responsible for the damage mother nature did (with the exception of the levee issue, but let's leave that for now) - but we ARE responsible for the damage that happened after the storm passed.

Stand up Mr. President and take on some of the blame. You are our commander in chief and I expect MORE from you. Tell your "buddy" Mr. Roberts to look for another job (because he was never qualified for it to begin with) and start working with the mayors and governors of those southern red states who put their trust in you and voted for you instead of trying to usurp their power. This was a human disaster of biblical proportions - surely you can understand that much.

If I HAD a senator or a congress-person I would be on the phone making my complaint heard. But of course, as a resident of this nation's capital, I have no voice. All I can do is wait for the next presidential election and do my damnedest to make certain your party is no longer calling 1600 Pennsylvania Ave. home.

And of course, I can offer up my little study to somebody without a home. Funny, I bet NONE of our great leaders with their big homes have done the same. It's all of us "little people" who make the real difference. Those in power that preach the Christian way don't very often act it. Isn't the expression "What would Jesus do?" I have a good idea what the answer to that is . . . but I don't imagine the powers that be have even bothered to ASK it.

It's a good thing I have an 18 mile run tomorrow . . . I'm going to need every one of those miles to release some of this anger and frustration . . . 'cause I'm pissed.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Housing Available

Well, we've done it. My housemate and I have applied at the above link to temporarily house a victim of hurricane Katrina. Both of us are feeling very good about our decision and the fact that we have taken action. Who knows if anybody will actually take advantage of our small study, but at least we've made it available!

We've also applied to foster a dog! Neither of us could bear the stories we were reading about the rescue efforts of our four-legged family members and decided that, too, would be the right thing to do.

So we sit and wait and hope.

In the meantime, I got in an easy eight miles on Saturday and am preparing myself for 18 this Saturday.

I'm also steeling myself for the onslaught of work. Starting this week, I begin juggling three jobs while continuing to train, audition, and try to have a social life.

No luck with match.com thus far . . . not that I haven't had offers, but they haven't been any I've been interested in. Naturally, the one guy I'm interested in doesn't seem to be readily available in that I don't hear from him much.

That's about it from THIS filled in swamp. I have nothing to say about the village idiot running (or is it ruining?) the country because I have TOO MUCH to say about him. Where even to begin?

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Sun, Rain, and Hurricane

I really don't know where to begin here . . . the world seems a bit topsy-turvy since I returned.

So I'll work chronologically from my perspective.

Saturday morning was a 16-miler for all of us AIDS Marathoners and let me just say what a difference from 14! We ran most of the way in a cool, light rain and we ran happy and healthy. I was surprised how easy 16 was compared to two weeks ago when we ran two miles less. The weather makes a huge difference - obviously. Normally I don't enjoy running in the rain, but because this wasn't a heavy downpour or really cold, I have to say I actually enjoyed it.

Then I left for Fenwick Island and had a great mini-vacation. Highlights were: happy hours and snacks on the screened-in-porch, kayaking on the bay, swimming in the surf (was it ever strong!), running on a near deserted beach with Zoe, poking around Rehobeth and riding the rides (I loved the CHAOS ride - thanks to S and his antics), CRABS, and a nice swim in the pool. Yesterday was crazy windy and I figured Katrina was making her way up the East Coast . . . pelting me and my friends with sand and churning up the surf. Aside from the wind, it was pretty much a perfect vacation except that it had to end. The TV never went on so we blissfully enjoyed our time away from reality.

I returned to a full dose of it today. I'm bewildered and shocked by Katrina's devastation in the Gulf and cannot comprehend the behavior of some of the people down there. I cannot comprehend it because I cannot comprehend their situation, but it's appalling from where I sit and watch. I'm not judging (or at least TRYING not to), just awed and dismayed by it all.

A friend of mine's husband has gone down with a Red Cross relief truck. We got our first update this evening and he's already experiencing frustration and heartache and he hasn't even arrived at his destination yet.

How do you help? How do you make a difference in the lives of the people who lost everything except their lives? Yes, give money. It feels so insignificant. Of course it adds up, but I would rather be a woman of action than one just sitting here watching and waiting, hoping I've done enough and knowing it's probably not.

And naturally I think about the animals, too. Who will help them? In some ways they are probably better equipped to survive something as wretched as this . . . and in other ways they are totally dependent on us to save them.

It feels so damn hopeless that I wish I had never left the beach. Ignorance is bliss indeed.

Friday, August 26, 2005

Fenwick Island or Bust

Tomorrow I leave for Fenwick Island! Time to enjoy the final days of summer with some R & R at the beach. I am really looking forward to the trip.

I am going with several friends and we're staying at another friend's beach house. I'm taking Zoe (she LOVES the beach) so those who are dear to me the most, besides my family, will be there with me.

I am looking forward to so many things . . . playing in the sand, taking long walks on the beach, eating good food and drinking wine in the company of friends, reading inside while it rains (Katrina should make her way up from Florida), and exploring all the island has to offer. I'm also looking forward to running on the beach with Zoe.

Of course, I need to run 16 miles before I can leave. At least tomorrow morning looks cooler than the day we ran those awful 14. I'm sure the run will go well. And I'll have EARNED the trip. So I can revel in the fun, food, drink, and relaxation!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

The Green-Eyed Monster

Confession: I get jealous . . . a lot . . . about lots of things.

This could mean any number of things, but I'm pretty sure I know why. In spite of everything my friends and family might say, I experience a fair amount of insecurity. I'm constantly battling those feelings, but the truth is I can get pretty anxious about many things in my life: my love life, my professional life, money, and general approval.

Sadly, my insecurity comes out as jealousy - sometimes agressive jealousy.

I compare myself to other women quite a bit, especially women who are experiencing success where I am experiencing insecurity. It's not that I dislike these women (many of them are my FRIENDS so quite the contrary), it's just that I'm seeing something in them that I want - a better body, a better wardrobe, a boyfriend, more money, a job.

This last one is particularly hard on me. As an actor we are constantly looking for work (even when we're working) and in a town the size of DC, you find yourself competing against your friends for roles. This is hard on me. Even the women who aren't my friends I respect and like. Yet I always wonder why they are working and I'm not . . . and that leads to me comparing myself, feeling insecure, and ultimately getting angry and jealous.

I HATE THAT FEELING.

How do you control it? Therapy would help, sure, but it's out of the question financially. I could go through another round of The Artist's Way which has helped me immensely in the past - sort of like a twelve-step program for creative types. Or I could just change careers.

Yeah, the thought goes through my mind on a regular basis.

But how do you abandon your passion? Or how do you re-invent yourself and keep that passion? I've had opportunities to get out with good jobs and always said "no." Shouldn't that tell me something? Or should I subscribe to the theory that the past doesn't equal the future? The thing is, I just can't imagine walking away. Is that a lack of vision on my part or a sign that I'm on the right path? East Coast Alaskan Girl and City Mouse have both commented on working in the industry . . . clearly its a struggle for each of us in our own ways. SIGH.

And people wonder what I think about when I'm running.

Yeah, running helps.

Coloring your hair helps.

Time with friends (even those working!) helps.

Zoe helps. Of course she does. Unconditional love ALWAYS helps.

I am armed with all kinds of weapons against this green-eyed monster (Is it the same as my Gremlin? They're definitely related if not the same). I just need to remember I can rely on them.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Blonde is Passe


Very soon I am off to my new colorist - and returning to my natural hair color: red.

I am nervous. I have been blonde for over five years. But I have a history of pictures of me as a redhead and I am eager to return to my roots (pun intended)! Okay, well, not my CURRENT roots 'cause this is where my age begins to show, but to my once fabulous fiery roots.

Growing up a redhead wasn't easy. I got called carrot top and freckles and all that. My red hair wasn't appreciated by boys until I hit college. Then I suddenly discovered the reputation red heads have as grown-ups. I wouldn't say I was popular - it takes a special guy to really appreciate a redhead - but I was more popular than I ever had been.

Through college and just out my red hair was truly my crowning glory. It was long, thick, and curly. It separated me from most women both professionally and personally. But as I got older my hair color and texture changed and I decided to go blonde to make it easier on myself and my bank account (matching red hair is very difficult and expensive).

Well, the past year or so I've been debating trying red again. I have finally found the courage - with the help of many friends - and in less than an hour I leave, oddly enough, to go forward into my past and become part of that 4% of the world's population.

There is a new book out about redheads and I cannot wait to read it - and find out on my own if Marion Roach's observations ring true for me!

Monday, August 22, 2005

Kick Off Your Shoes

WHAT?!? I should be running barefoot? Am I now Zola Budd?

Well, I don't know what to think anymore. It seems like the more we know, the more we discover we're doing it all wrong and that we had it right long before technology entered into the picture. Certainly it applies to more things than running shoes . . . but how practical is this advice?

I just bought my new running shoes . . . it's hard to throw them out when they've only gone about 50 miles so far and I threw down a chunk of change for them! I haven't suffered IT Band Syndrome since my first marathon (knock on wood) and though I suffer leg and foot cramps at night sometimes, I don't blame my shoe. I'M lazy but I don't think my FOOT is.

Yet, Zola Budd did it. That tribe in Mexico does it. I'm sure my beloved Kalenjin's do it.

I think maybe their running routes, though potentially hazardous, are different than running the DC city sidewalks. Do I want to risk running through the broken glass, garbage, construction waste, and water from who knows where with BARE FEET? Yuck - that's a definitive NO. I think of the years I ran on the C&O Canal - all GRAVEL. Somehow I just don't think that would be very comfortable. Aren't we risking one injury for another?

Of course Mr. MacDougall isn't saying the professionals advocate running without shoes - just different kinds of shoes. Apparently I can look forward to "non-shoe" shoes that will cost me a fortune.

Maybe it's time to run in my Tevas.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Sunday Update

*all has been quiet out back since the police came
*spent Thursday night with a friend on her back deck drinking wine
*barely survived my hangover Friday
*enjoyed Friday night with the girls but abstained (yes, I can be taught)
*ran an easy seven yesterday morning and purged the last of the wine out of my body
*had a nice hike with Zoe in Rock Creek Park
*did my laundry
*today I'm off to the Virginia Wine Festival with friends (am I insane? outside in a heat index of at least 100 degrees tasting wine?)

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Confessions of a Biker Boy Addict

It's true - there is a special allure to a biker boy.

For me it's less of the Harley riding, trash talking, long-haired type and more of the James Dean type. I won't deny I am attracted to the bad boy.

My first boyfriend (for all intents and purposes, but I use that term loosely here) was a biker boy. He had longer hair, an earring, smoked, and drove a Kawasaki. He was my dream and my mother's nightmare. In fact, my mother's dislike of him only added to his appeal. He was utterly cool and I knew then I had a problem.

I have dated others with bikes. In college I dated a guy with a crotch-rocket, a la Tom Cruise. On our way home from the beach one day, we flew down the highway chasing a Ferrari - turns out we were going 140 mph (note to siblings reading this - do not tell Mom)! It was FABULOUS. Out of college one of the loves of my life bought a bike while we were dating. I even got to help him pick out the bike and advise him on the color of the paint job. It was a thing of beauty - and so was he on it. Fast forward to the not so distant past. This last guy I didn't exactly DATE, but he was young and pretty and irresistible on his bike. Dark and brooding, much like my high school biker boy, and oh so dangerous for so many reasons (which in my book means PERFECT); I just had to have a fix.

Fast forward a little more and my sister is now MARRIED to a biker guy. He's the clean-cut military type but still . . . my conservative, soccer mom sister gets a guy on a Harley and is now sporting leather pants and a leather jacket! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE UNIVERSE?????

I am, as I have made abundantly clear, still single. And, as I have also made abundantly clear, I'm good with that most of the time.

This is NOT one of those times. It's the end of summer and school's about to start and I always think back on my biker boys this time of year. I need to feel the wind in my hair and my arms around the waist of a man, not caring where we're going just that we're going there fast.

Since I have not been able to find a biker boy on my own in a while . . . and here's my confession . . . I am back in the world of computer dating. UGH. Perhaps my less than enthusiastic approach is only making things worse for me here, yet somehow my version of the biker boy is hard to find online. Of course, my version also requires he's not incarcerated, unemployed, fifty-five years old, or a devotee of NASCAR (and NO, I don't think all of those go together . . . all the time).

SIGH. Is it too much to ask for a decent, self-sufficient, smart, funny, thrill-seeking, city-dwelling, talented, with money to blow, pretty man on a bike?

But I keep searching for that cowboy on a steal horse . . . BON JOVI!!!!

Somehow I don't think I'll find HIM online. As for any others, I'm starting to think I've let them all go . . . at least all the good ones.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Stick and Stones Take Two

Last night I called the police again.

Not 911 - I couldn't in good conscience take away police from matters of life and death. So I called 311 again when the sound of concrete hitting the house began around 7:30 or so.

I'm torn about my decision . . .

The good news is my faith in the 311 system has returned as the police arrived within 5 minutes of my call. They were very polite and efficient and seemed to understand that all I wanted was the rock chucking to end. They were going to find the parents of the children and speak to them. Apparently, if I can identify the child (hard to do as they are quick and our fence is very high) and any damage is done the parent is held accountable for that damage. Hopefully the moms and dads will reign in the delinquent pitcher.

What is making me unsure of my decision is seeing, in the pack of children being corralled by the police, two or so "babies" - children that couldn't have been more than 5 years old! They looked so scared and I felt terrible. I am quite sure it is one or two older boys causing all of the trouble and these poor babies are just guilty by association. I'm also worried that my actions may only escalate the problem! SIGH. I guess only time will tell.

I hate this push me-pull you feeling! I shouldn't feel guilty about wanting to sit in my own yard without getting pummelled by a hunk of cement. Yet the whole black/white, haves/have-nots, young/old crap weighs heavy on my heart.

How do you know if you've done the right thing?

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Sticks and Stones May Break My Bones

So may chunks of concrete!

But I'm getting ahead of myself.

For better or worse (and probably a little of both) my neighborhood is in "transition". The property values are skyrocketing and more middle and upper class people, and therefore more Caucasians, are moving into the neighborhood. We could spend hours debating the pros and cons of gentrification, but that's not what this entry is about.

The avenue I live on is mixed ethnically, but right behind us most of the homes are occupied by blacks and quite a few families. The children play in the ally because, sadly, there really is nowhere else to play. They pull out a portable basketball hoop or toss the football. In the past, the balls have come into our yard and my housemate and I have returned the balls with no protest.

The past few weeks, it's been chunks of concrete instead. Some have hit the house and I find the chunks in the yard every morning. I place them in a pile and before last night never said anything to the kids.

Last night, while enjoying margarita Monday on the deck, a chunk of concrete came flying into the yard and landed directly between two of my friends, nearly missing their heads. Come to find out, they had also broken my neighbors' fence and been tossing the chunks of concrete into their yard and they have an infant child! That was the last straw for us.

We confronted the kids and of course all vehemently denied their involvement. I don't deny that it is probably one or two bad seeds but I was surprised by their defiance and even aggressiveness towards us. We returned to our yards, my neighbor to fixing his fence and I to my friends and margaritas when more concrete came crashing around us. Well, I ran inside and called the police.

DC has this police "non-emergency" line, 311, which in theory is a good idea, but frankly I haven't yet had a good experience with it. The idea is to call 911 only when your life is in danger, but I believe 311 calls are often ignored by the police. When I lived in Petworth, I actually had an operator give me lip and tell me the people I was reporting weren't doing anything wrong! Well, since our lives weren't in any immediate danger (though getting hit by one of those things would HURT) I called 311 to report the kids. I was told the "next available officer" would be dispatched.

In the meantime, my more level-headed housemate went outside the fence to try to call a truce. I said good-bye to my friends (no buzz-killer like a kid throwing concrete at you) and my housemate and I returned to the backyard. We were discussing how to handle the possibility of another incident when lo and behold another chunk of concrete comes flying over the fence, accompanied by some swearing, and the chunk lands in the other neighbor's yard. We decide to call it a night and go inside.

My housemate goes to the study to use the computer and I go up to read. Since I'm pretty sensitive to sound, I use earplugs at night. Next thing I know I hear a thunk through the earplugs and my housemate calling for me. Sure enough, the house had been hit twice by some type of projectile. I get back on the phone, dial 311, and am told the "next available officer" would come by. We never saw the police.

This morning I cleared several more chunks of concrete and a shoe from the yard and added them to the growing pile.

So today, my housemate is going to try to talk with the parents of these children. It is a bold move, and may be met with any number of reactions. These parents are never outside checking on the kids . . . will they care? I can only hope so.

What's most upsetting to me is that these kids may not be held accountable for their actions. Frankly, they're vandalizing our house and our neighbors' houses. They could break more of the fence or even a window. They could hurt one of us, the dogs, or the baby. And if I'm to rely on 311 the police will never come and we have no way of catching who is actually doing the throwing. I worry how it could escalate. How is it we are the targets? What have we done to them? Is it race related? Is it the changing of the neighborhood? Could it go even deeper than that? Or are they just a bunch of kids with nothing to do and no place to play?

I don't suppose I'll ever get an answer, but I was sure happy to have a maintenance run today to release some of my anger and frustration and consider my options.

Next time those sticks and stones (and shoes) come flying over the fence to break our bones, I'm calling 911 . . . and looking for a kid with only one shoe.

Monday, August 15, 2005

Margarita Monday

A little hair of the dog that bit ya?

Yup, we've got beer and tequila to drink up. Sadly, there's no guava juice left for more "runners remorse" punch, but I'm happy with a margarita in hand.

WE HAVE SO MANY LEFTOVERS! Oh MA GA!

So instead of spending money we don't have, the girls and I are having Margarita Monday over at the pink house and enjoying some luau leftovers. No doubt we'll hardly make a dent in them (except, I'm guessing, the tequila).

This is one of my favorite activities to do with my girlfriends - kinda like Sex in the City downsized. Seriously, I love getting together with my friends and enjoying drinks, food, and chatter. Sometimes we talk about nothing of importance and sometimes things get pretty riled up (me, riled up?). And we always have fun and laugh - usually a lot.

This time we're especially lucky 'cause a friend who moved out of town some time ago has made her annual pilgrimage to DC and we get to hang out with her for a while.

And, the weather has cooled down some. True, it's still 90 freakin' degrees outside plus humidity, but compared to the weekend it's like fall has arrived!

Ahh . . . fall. Though I look forward to slightly cooler weather I am not looking forward to the shorter days and the larger workload . . . and worst of all I can longer enjoy Margarita Monday and good times with friends.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

LOVELY AND AMAZING LUAU


WHAT A GREAT LUAU!!! It was a big success and I have SO MANY people to thank for it.

First of all my wildly creative housemate who single-handedly transformed the pink house into a Hawaiian paradise. Not only did she decorate the place beautifully, but cooked some AMAZING (so I was told since I don't eat meat myself) Kalua Pig! So not only did our friends get lei'd, they also got some ass at the party - PIG's ass, but still quite a treat (thank you C for letting me steal your joke). She also made an great Lomi Salmon.

I also had dear friends come over and help in the final preparations because, as predicted, we were racing against the clock to get ready. Not surprising, they were the same three ladies joining me in Hawaii to cheer me on (and "recover" in the days following). Thank you, LADIES!

My housemate also had friends rise to the occasion and bake for us as well as deliver much needed ice, and fix a very foamy keg (okay, so rolling it down the ally was not our most intelligent moment).

But most of all, I need to thank the guests. We probably had somewhere in the vicinity of 40 people show up, partake, and donate to the cause and because of all of them I am now over $500 closer to meeting my fundraising. AMAZING! I am so grateful for all of their support. I know so many of my close friends (most of whom work in the arts) make so little money and it is incredibly touching to know they dug deep to find something to give. Before the party, I hadn't met many of my housemate's friends, yet even as virtual strangers to me they also donated generously. And finally my fellow Tegla Teammates, who ran those hot and horrible fourteen miles with me, who are also busy trying to fundraise, showed up and threw their money into the bucket as well. I am in awe of all of them!

And they gave so much more than their money! They took pictures (some of which I will post), cleaned up a dead mouse (a very unpleasant task), gave inspiring cards, shared inspiring thoughts, and above all made me laugh. I believe it is those acts of support that are most important.

So the party finally broke up about 1:30 AM and my housemate and I spent the next hour cleaning and clearing. She really pulled through for me as there is little worse for me than waking up to the mess the day after. Of course that meant it was a 21.5 hour day for me - on my feet, with little exception, the entire 21.5 hours. WHEW.

Now that I have walked Zoe in Rock Creek Park, put away the dishes, and watered all the plants I can rest and relax for a few hours before it is time to prep for my audition tomorrow.

I am in high spirits thanks to a lovely and amazing luau - and leftover Lomi Salmon!

Saturday, August 13, 2005

F***ING FOURTEEN

Fourteen miles today . . . in the oppressive heat . . . I hated it. That covers it.

Friday, August 12, 2005

Luau Prep

It has been a busy day of LUAU prep, folks! And it's only going to get busier!!

My housemate is beyond excited and I'm not sure what to expect when I get home to the pink house. What started as tater tots and pig on a stick has become a nearly authentic Luau meal! Here is the menu:

Appetizers
Cabbage Salad
Sticky rice (or maybe carmel sweet potatoes)
Fruit salad in pineapple boat
Shrimp cocktail
Cheese & bread
Chips & Salsa & & Queso
KALUA PIG oh yeah baby
Lomi Salmon
Cake
Chocolate covered macadamia nuts
Soda
Punch
Beer
Cucumber water

What happened to finger food? THIS IS SO MUCH BETTER! And I'm so happy she is all over this party as my schedule kinda sucks for helping much.

Tonight I shop and then either help decorate or prepare food (I can't believe we're having Kalua Pig). Tomorrow morning I run 14 miles - with a heat advisory out and a team that once again ran too fast last week (good thing I was in Mass running on my own). I guess we'll see how it goes. I feel ready for it, but honestly I worry about the heat. That always seems to take it out of me. At least our muscles stay warm - that's a positive. You gotta look for them wherever you can. :) Then the rest of the day tomorrow is dedicated to the Luau. Fortunately, the fun begins at 8pm and I'm planning on imbibing immediately.

So things are busy in marathon land.

T minus 28 hours and counting . . .

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Running Forever

Once again, John Bingham tells it like it is.

My road to running wasn't quite the same, but wasn't altogether that different either. As I mentioned in a previous post my brother and sister were runners - and pretty competitive. To steal a phrase from another runner - I "jogged" my way through cross-country.

It took me a long time to get serious. I wasn't grossed out by my brother's horror stories, instead I was fascinated. The coolest thing in the world to me was when, in his senior year, he was running in the State Finals. I raced around the course to follow his progress (it was a fairly spectator-friendly course) and was thrilled with the early part of the race. Then he seemed to disappear . . . and when I finally saw him climbing a hill he was a bit behind the pace he had set - an unusual occurrence with my brother.

Come to find out, he had been spiked as he went around a narrow curve. Yeah, spiked. As in racing spikes (lightweight shoes with SPIKES on the soles) digging into the flesh of his foot spiked. In essence, he was running with a hole in his foot - a bleeding hole.

Well, he finished the race. I would've been a baby and stopped no doubt. Be he finished and because he finished injured he helped his team place third at State's. Not a bad way to go out.

So . . . fascinated as I was with the gore of running, I didn't have the GUTS. So when it came to choosing between running and theatre, well, playing dress-up and pretend fit my personality more. So I stopped running.

Then college came. I ran sporadically to try to lose those awful "Freshman 15." In the end it was a crazy schedule and dance classes that did it.

Then I went on tour . . . and really the only way to keep in shape on tour is to run. Don't misunderstand, I still wasn't serious about it. I just ran to enjoy the weather or get out of the hotel room - to escape from or to something else. Funny, as Mr. Bingham says, I always ended up back in the same place.

Then I went to grad school and there was "no time". Or so I thought until a bad breakup with a boy (are we seeing a recurring theme in my early running?). Then I ran to purge him from my heart and head. It worked a little. Kick-boxing worked a lot.

Then finally . . . I moved to DC. I had few friends and wasn't working as an actor. I was miserable. I decided - in a wild desperate move - to join the AIDS Marathon Training Program and run my first marathon. I started running on the treadmill at the gym (YUCK - but it was February) and I was cross-training with weights and aerobics. Then I had another bad breakup and got really charged (amazing what a breakup will do to your determination!). The weather got nice and Zoe and I were inspired by the warm weather and Rock Creek Park. I met another boy - a few houses down - and he became another running partner (okay, and a little more until he moved to Belgium). I was feeling strong, meeting new people, and getting acting work. Running had changed my life and I hadn't even run the marathon yet. It wasn't until the marathon that I finally understood the GUTS my brother had possessed in High School.

So now it's five marathons later and I'm hooked. I don't always love it - in fact, I continue to have a love/hate relationship with running. Yet I always return to it. I like Mr. Bingham's likening his running shoes to giant erasers. I go back to running for similar reasons. And through this blog I am coming to terms with being a runner. You don't have to be fast to be a runner. You don't have to win races or get medals or have stories like my brother's great spiking. You just have to put one foot in front of the other in the act of running.

I've said it before and I'll say it again . . . there is no finish line . . . kinda like running forever.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Please pass the wine . . . or beer.

Yippee! I have been given the green light to DRINK!

Okay, okay . . . I realize in MODERATION . . . and I shouldn't stay up or out till the wee hours . . . I really don't party as much as I lead on.

I'm just relieved I can partake a little with no guilt. Denial is another thing I'm not so good at (yes, I ended the sentence with a preposition). I like to enjoy what life has to offer - eat with gusto, drink with passion, live with abandon. Life is too short and if you truly go around only once (or once that you remember) then I think my "motto" serves me well. I enjoy risk and pushing my limits. A little danger in life is good for me.

I'm not saying be stupid and play chicken with a train . . . not my style (though I recall doing it a few times in Kentucky on my way to the theatre). I'm saying try things that make your heart race a little: skydive, trestle jump, run a horse (these I've done), parasail, surf (things I need to do - and will in Hawaii!).

So please pour me another . . . CHEERS!

Monday, August 08, 2005

Bay State Update

I have been in Massachusetts for the past few days and tonight is my final night so I thought I'd share a few of the highlights of my trip and update you on my running.

The best part of my trip occured last evening, just about dusk. Now there are a lot of things I love about visiting my parents: gourmet food (my mom is an amazing cook as many of my friends will confirm), beautiful setting (the western edge of the Berkshires - stunning), and relaxing in their "well-appointed" home. Part of relaxing in the summer means sitting out in the screened in porch.

For some of you "screened in porch" conjurs images of astro-turf covered porches with makeshift screens set in and a giant bug-zapper INSIDE the room that is supposed to keep the bugs OUT. The furniture might be fold up lawn chairs or something more permanent with moldy cushions. Make no mistake, my parent's porch is no such thing. Their porch is a work of art (again, friends will confirm). It's beautiful - hardwood floors, rod-iron furniture with lovely cushions and pillows, a wood ceiling fan to keep the room air stirring on humid days, and a scenic backyard that blends quite seemlessly into the woods behind the house.

Well, we were on said porch enjoying a glass of fine wine and easy conversation when I leap from my reclined position on the couch and gasp at what I see just outside of this porch. A GIANT BLACK BEAR (I'm talkin' in the neighborhood of 400 - 500 pounds) idly strolls by the house - from the frontyard and apparently the street, to the backyard. It pauses long enough to take us in and then continues on its merry way along the backyards of our neighbors - causing dogs and grown men to bark like crazy. AMAZING. Apparently this bear has visited before - my mother enjoyed watching it make a Sunday morning pass in the frontyard, climb a neighbor's tree, and then continue up the street. Definitely the hightlight of the trip. I just thank the universe for making certain Zoe was INSIDE at this time as she normally sits on the back stoop unleashed for hours on end. One swipe from the bear (no doubt Zoe would ask for it under these conditions) and Zoe would be a goner!

That's about all the DRAMA I've enjoyed since arriving Thursday night. I've done my laundry (I felt very much like a college student dragging my laundry up here when I have a perfectly good washer and dryer at home) and viewed the latest complete photo album of my mother's extensive collection. We went hiking out at Mt. Tom and Bashbish Falls and have even enjoyed the "jewel" of Westfield, Stanly Park, a few times. We celebrated my mother's birthday, did some shopping in Lee and Northampton, and have had countless glasses of wine. Not a bad way to spend some down time all in all.

I ran a good five miles on Friday morning with Zoe - she was thrilled to be in the aforementioned park swimming and my only complaint would be the biting flies. I ran six on Sunday, my father biking just ahead of me to push me, and it felt quite good - even with the big hills. If only I could move the running routes I have here down to DC!

Tomorrow I head home. I don't feel quite ready yet, actually. Though I'm ready to see my friends and have some fun at the LUAU, I'm sad to leave the peace and quiet so soon.

The good news is I am back for Christmas . . . maybe just for a short time but I can't complain. Who knows, maybe the black bear will come back for a visit then too.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

'Cause You Gotta Have Friends

Well, it's official! I booked my flight yesterday - with two friends - so ready or not Hawaii here I come!

I'm very excited. I am thrilled to be traveling with close, fun friends - not doubt the Big Island will never know what hit it. We are extending our stay after the marathon so we can enjoy some of what the Island has to offer as part of my "recovery" from 26.2 miles.

It's amazing how much the support of friends can see you through a marathon. It just so happens that I have been lucky enough to always have a friend or family member on the marathon route cheering me on.

My first marathon I was injured, and my parents were there to cheer me on as well as my sister at the half-way point. But a big surprise came when a friend of mine got my attention just before the 14th Street Bridge of the Marine Corps Marathon (that's about mile 22-24 or so). I was hurting bad and my Gremlin was trying to talk me out of finishing . . . and she was wearing a big smile. I said, "walk with me" and she stepped right onto the road and kept me company to that bitch of a bridge. I might not have made it without her. I'm currently trying to convince her to join in the fun in December as she'll have crossed a finish line of her own by then - her dissertation will be FINISHED and we'll all have to call her Doc. Frankly, I'd rather run a marathon than go through a PhD program!

My second marathon was the one and only "official" DC Marathon. My parents couldn't make it and I thought I was going to have to run it without a friendly face on the course. Just before the finish line I heard somebody shout my name - and there were two dear friends standing on the side arms full of treats for me. I shouted "run with me" and without hesitation they "sprinted" (if you can call it that after I've run 26 miles) to the finish line with me. I was so moved by their presence I cried. Really.

My third marathon was in Richmond and once again my parents were there supporting me along the route. What was extra special was that my mother had cut up some oranges for me, so along the route she was there with the BEST marathon snack available. I had a great first half, but typical of me, I hit the wall around mile 20 and was struggling. I had left my training partner behind me early in the run (he was hurting) and had passed the last place I'd see my folks before the finish line. I still had about 2 miles to go when I heard somebody call my name. It was my fabulous training partner and friend - he had caught up to me and we finished the race together. I have a picture of us crossing the finish line together framed in my room.

My fourth was back with the Marine Corps and once again my folks were there (with oranges!). I didn't expect to see anybody else along the route but as I was reaching the half-way point (and already unhappy and hurting) a friend shouted my name from the side. I looked up and there was a dear friend (and BOB) waving frantically. I ran to give her a hug - she was decked out in jeans and boots - and since she didn't want me to slow down she ran part way UP Capitol Hill in those jeans and boots! Amazing. And I'm so lucky to have her in Hawaii with me!

The last Marine Corps marathon was my worst . . . my training had fallen apart before the race and I wasn't prepared. My training partner was running NY instead so I didn't have him to lean on this time. My folks came anyway . . . with no guarantee I'd finish . . . avec oranges. I had met two women from Toronto at the packet pick-up the night before and we arranged to go to the race together. I was lucky enough to run with them for about the first 16 miles . . . then they disappeared in the crowd ahead of me (they had trained better than I had of course). I was bummed out and once again fighting with my Gremlin when I had to hit hateful Haines Point. Now those that know Haines Point as part of this marathon understand why it's hateful. It is late in the race (miles 18 - 22) and it is a lonely stretch of road. By this point the racers have thinned out and few people bother to cheer you at Haines Point. I was having trouble running when ahead of me I saw a familiar "gait" - my now housemate had come out to Haines Point to support me with peanut butter and other snacks if memory serves me. She walked with me for a bit, gave me a pep talk, and I headed to that bitch of a bridge again still no longer fighting my Gremlin, just fatigue. As I hit the beginning of the bridge who's waiting for me but my training partner! He said, "I thought you might be having a hard time here so I came to run you in." Well, though I couldn't run the whole way (in fact, I could run very little of the last six miles - ugh) he stayed right with me and kept pushing me. The Marines forced him to leave the course at the Iwo Jima hill (the last .2 are UPHILL) but because of this great friend I FINISHED.

So I am now training for yet another marathon . . . and I am once again blown away by the support my friends have shown me: some are volunteering for me, some are contributing what little money they can, some are running with me, some are helping me throw a fund-raising party, and some are going all the way to Hawaii to cheer me on.

They are all going the distance with me.

'Cause you gotta have friends.

Monday, August 01, 2005

If You Can't Stand the Heat . . .

. . . go get Margaritas!

Okay, so that's not the expression but after two days of no A/C and going on a third I'm ready just to sit in a cold Mexican restaurant and drink frozen margaritas.

Yeah, the A/C guy finally came today and we need a new fan for the compressor which won't be in until tomorrow. ACK. Last night was so damn hot. I realize it could have been so much hotter, but I think today is going to make that a possibility tonight. It's already 90 degrees in the house . . . and it's just now noon.

Frankly, the whole weekend is driving me to drink - well, not ALL of it, but I did get a flat tire and had to have that taken care of. Plus, there's a mouse in the house we can't get rid of because if we bait a trap we basically invite every ant in DC to the house for a snack. The dogs chase it when they see it, but aren't fast enough to catch it and kill it. Time to borrow a cat.

So, though I wasn't going to go into work, I am now. I spent the morning weeding the garden in prep for the LUAU . . . which is still nearly two weeks away, but I'm going away for a few days to visit my parents in Massachusetts so it had to be done now.

Ahhh . . . the ice box office. I think today will be the first day I DON'T complain about it being too cold in there.

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Travel Plans

So . . . the A/C is busted and it's over 90 degrees in the house . . . so if I stop making sense blame the heat.

I got my travel plans for Honolulu in the mail yesterday. Now don't get me wrong, I'm VERY EXCITED about this trip and the marathon, however the travel plans didn't thrill me. I admit, I was disappointed.

I want to fly out on the 9th, run the marathon on the 11th, and then stay several days to enjoy Hawaii in December! And I was told I could extend my stay up to seven days. But what the folks at AIDS Marathon do is extend the trip on both sides of the marathon . . . and that's just too many days of being in Hawaii and having to be on my best behavior! NO CAN DO!

So, I think I'm going to book my own flight and figure it out from there. In fact, on our 12-miler today (an excellent run by the way), my teammates and I were ALL of like mind and it appears we will all be booking our own flights. Besides, this way I can travel with the friends who have expressed an interest in going with me. :) And that will be much more fun.

Hard to believe it's time to think about booking flights. Hard to believe we almost ran 1/2 marathon today. Hard to believe August is just around the corner. Hard to believe I'm going to Hawaii in just over 4 months. ALOHA!

Friday, July 29, 2005

Time Trials

That's what Team Tegla's pace group leader likes to call his weekly update on our mile splits. He e-mails them to us so we can determine if we're on track with our pace.

Well, Team Tegla likes to break the speed limit. In fact, we've gotten into some trouble with our coach for going too fast. I realize we're not the only group - they've actually put "speed cops" on the course and if we're ahead of our pace by too much, they stop us.

We must've gotten some cops bad at quick math two weeks ago.

We are supposed to be running a 10-minute-mile training pace. Well, we AVERAGED an 8-minute-mile pace two weeks ago, and that's with walk and water breaks!!! Who knows what we were actually running!!!

I'm not sorry for being able to run the speed . . . but I certainly felt it . . . especially at mile six where we ran a 7:30. It was hot and I finally spoke some words to our pace group leader. He's a great guy, but ex-military so I think he has a higher threshold for pain than I do. As I was gasping for air at a stoplight and dizzy from the blazing sun I wanted to cry. He looked like he was hardly sweating. Damn Army (I believe their philosophy is "train it like you want to run it").

As I mentioned in my last post I missed last weekend. They were slightly better behaved for the 10-miler. It will be very interesting to see how we manage 12 miles tomorrow. Fortunately the intense heat and humidity has broken and tomorrow is supposed to be cloudy and cooler (maybe even rain). And I have a crawfish boil to look forward to!

So lookout speed cops - Team Tegla's on the road.